The Vacuous & Vain Attraction Game

Lip filler. Botox. Microneedling. Face peels. Face lifts. Boob job. BBL. Lipo. Rhinoplasty. Genioplasty. Double eyelid surgery. Hair highlights. Nails, both hands and feet. Brow tattoos. False eyelashes. Shaving. Armpits, legs, arms, feet, vulva, ass. Microplaning peach fuzz. Nair. Threading. Waxing. Makeup. Foundation. Concealer. Brow pencil.... Read more 04 Jun 2025 - 2 minute read

An Allowance of Humanity

I often ponder how frequently others terrorize themselves. And by terrorize, I mean incessantly self analyze. My own cerebral capacities are subject to a recurrent onslaught of interrogation, all conducted by me. A constant questioning of the morality of my social dealings: Am I representing my character well? Am I making useful points to the co... Read more 30 May 2025 - 2 minute read

Rant.Rant.Rant.

This really is something I should do more often… Just brain dump it all out there. Idk why I don’t. I spend so much time thinking, analyzing, pondering, pontificating, that I forget just STARTING the thing is often the hardest part. But do I really forget that? I am consciously aware of it, often espousing the same advice to friends with similar... Read more 19 May 2025 - 3 minute read

Frustration of Privileged Circumstance

Frustration of circumstance. I find it difficult to sit with emotions. Actually, that’s a lie. I find myself unable to allow myself to be frustrated at the state of my life. On the one hand, I understand that my perception of this sentience and the world is limited to my own experience, and drowning under one foot of water vs a hundred feet of w... Read more 12 May 2025 - 2 minute read

Jealousy as the Ultimate Existential/Social CockBlock

How often are we cognizant of the source of our jealousy? How often are we dually aware of the sensation felt, and the original insecurity within ourselves that caused it? Envy and jealousy provoke actions of poor taste, causing us to act passive aggressively or in a downright cruel manner. Displays of this deficient character reveal themselves ... Read more 01 May 2025 - 7 minute read

Graduate School Stole Something From Me

Graduate school stole something from me. This “something” was an amalgamation of numerous smaller things, diverse yet unified, their collective loss representing my final shred of innocence. A torrent of thoughts rush forth, spilling over one another, each striving eagerly toward the open whitespace of my computer screen. The multitudinous natu... Read more 15 Apr 2025 - 4 minute read

I'm Still Not Sure Where to Go from Here

I once told myself that one way to orient amidst a multitude of feelings was to put pen to page. For years, journaling has reminded me of the power of writing—of giving shape to emotions through words. It’s like unplugging the drain of an overfilled bathtub: letting out just enough to prevent the spill. I return often to this state of emotional... Read more 09 Apr 2025 - 1 minute read

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